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some people... [03 Feb 2008|05:51pm] ...i just don't understand. well alot of people i don't understand, myself included much of the time :) but on the whole i'd say i am a pretty "understanding" person, though i might not feel the same way or even agree, i'm usually pretty good at putting myself in someone else's shoes and at least seeing how or why they think they way they do. but lately i've found a few where i just don't get it. i don't get how you can so vehemntly hate a group of people for a way of life or belief. i understand distaste for some people's choices, distain even but to hold *anyone* in real contempt without any real knowlege of who they are blows me away. it must suck to have that much anger in your life that you must project it onto almost everyone and everything else. and i understand some cases where it's your job to defend people who you feel don't have any real understanding or appreciation for what you do...but when you go to a place of hatred for them you are no better then them, you are just as big of an asshole but you have a gun so you can feel like a big man. it's wierd, not since the church split have i had this much disgust for another person. (which is hypocritical of me i know) but when anyone puts a picture of a gun on thier myspace with the caption (m1a aka silencer of liberals/pieces of shit) you lose any respect i might have had for you (and it was minscule to begin with, if there was any at all). that still gets under my skin. still moo with me

myspace top 5, the irony [28 Jan 2008|02:27am] Have you ever __________with your top five??? Don’t change your MySpace top 5! - Fill the people in below! - Answer the questions truthfully [1] Nanea [2] Danica [3] Kellen [4] Dan [5] Lindsey 1. Have you ever danced with number 3? hahahahaha sure 2. Where did you meet number 5? when she was born? 3. Have you ever gotten drunk with number 4? duh. 5. Have you seen number 2 naked? lol yea not on purpose 7. Have you ever seen 5 in a swimsuit? mhm she looks much better than i do! 6. Do you like number 1? no i hate her, that's why she's my #1...DUH!!! frickin love her! 8. Have you ever met 4s Family? haha yea, they crack me up 9. Do you know 2s middle name? joanne. she's my aunt too 10. Have you ever eaten anything in front of 3? never. i never eat regularly in front of my brother lol hahaha 11. Do you trust number 5? yes, yes i do. 13. Have you ever fought with number 1? not seriously, it's over stupid sh*t like who's gonna sleep on the floor... (stubborn b*tch! :) 14. When’s the last time you talked to 3 in person? two or three days ago?? 15. Are any of your top 5 family? yup, my um...brother and sister? 17. Have you ever done something dangerous with number 1? lol not too bad 18. Have you ever slept in the same bed with number 5 ? i think so? 19. Do you think 1 and 5 would make a good couple? hahahahaha well if they were lesbians sure! lol 20. Would 3 do anything for you? i honestly think he is one of the few for whom i can say yes 21. Has 2 ever helped you out? eh mostly the other way around, but she has helped me many a time in many a way 22. Have you ever slept in the same bed as number 4? i don't think so... 23. Which have you known the longest? i think linds since she's been alive longer than kel :) 24. Who have you known the shortest? dan and carrie 26. Have you had a crush on 1-5? NO!!! 27. Have you ever done anything illegal with number 4? don't think so. 28. Will 1 - 5 repost this? hell no moo with me

[03 Sep 2007|07:47pm] i have one of those dull behind the eye headaches that come from annoying family stuff. i don't like it, make it go away. and call me. the end. moo with me

[26 Aug 2007|01:38pm] meh. i am feeling like a girl right now, but not in the good way. in just the...mer things are getting under my skin and i know they shouldn't so i'm not going to do anything but i'm a bit...off. and of course with this comes the whole i should be dealing with things but don't want to so i'm not. off, that's it. i'm feeling abit off. oh well, it'll pass. mer, i wanna see him moo with me

starbucks wisdom #232 [21 Jul 2007|11:33pm] "you simply can't make someone love you if they don't. you must choose someone who already loves you. if you choose someone who does not love you, theniis the sort of love you must want" - Israel Horovitz moo with me

[07 Jul 2007|02:19am] ( just ) moo with me

[22 Jun 2007|10:48pm] just got grades...fuck that shit i passed all my classes. considering the quarter i had, albeit over dramatic i'm sure and stupid as i've been, i passed them all, even my upper-div philos class. hells yeah. goodness. fuck you moo with me

[22 Jun 2007|12:02am] so i am drinking, then going to bed. or drinking so i can go to bed more appropriatly. so sue me :) so this is what it feels like...being treated like complete and utter shit. if only i knew what i did so i could avoid it in the future. oh, i guess not get emotionally involved with self-absorbed, completely self centered individuals, that might help. i'm done this time, i really and truly am. i guess it just took having what i knew all along (ha:) solidified. god, on so many levels. but i'll be fine. i think i'm going to stay away from relationships though. i'd rather have the less of (about a boy reference) friends who i will keep indefinatly, who i know will be there even if/when we fuck up. because that's what friends do. am i right? goodnight moo with me

[15 Jun 2007|10:57pm] random and i will elaborate better later but just so i can get the sentiment out....talking to amber's mom today about what i'm going to do later in life, and i what i want to do and my attitude about it made me realize...i do feel that way. i can do that. or at the least i can try, even if it's only in the aimless attiude and direction that i have. i know that makes no real sense but it does to me. i guess it's more that getting the reaffirmation of that i'm not crazy, and that's a legitimate approach was what i needed. not that i haven't heard it before. i've heard it a million times. but i guess this time, with exactly where i'm at right now i realized that i meant it. that i wasn't just bullshitting an answer 'cuz i was being asked i really do want to do that stuff. i've also realized through a couple of conversations today that i simply need to be done. i know that i know this. and i know it goes against my feelings. but that doesn't mean, just because i feel that way, that it's whats best for me. and it could maybe fly if the other party, all else aside, was trying to look out for me and my wellbeing, despite all the other problems. but that core desire for my well being isn't there. or if it is, it hasn't manifested itself in any way that has been made apparent to me...and maybe it's me. but any way you cut it, the moments don't make the months ok. maybe it should, maybe it should be able to sustain me. but if there's anything that these past two months have proven, it's that it can't. and i can't deal with that, though, again, perhaps i should find a way to. maybe it is worth it. but if i can't change my reaction/response to it soon, as i've proved i can't, then i need to change it. it is going to hurt like hell. and i will be a mess and so incredibally sad that i don't know hwo i'm going to deal but i will; i'll live. because i've realized i need to make the change. and i'll make it to tomorrow. because i have to. moo with me

[12 Jun 2007|09:42pm] things that made my day - "the way you phrased your realization 'an active expression of spirit' is deserving of 15 points on it's own..." ~Ethan my TA on a 15 point project "good girl" ~ little Japanese lady when i said i didn't need a fork with my sushi it's the little things, and one step at a time..... 1 cow| moo with me

[11 Jun 2007|03:53am] And who am I trying to kid? A clean break is easier, you can reset it and it heals and you move on…but if you leave things messy or things don’t get put right then it just hurts – forever. yup. Little Black Book watch it. it's purty darn good and under-rated moo with me

[10 Jun 2007|01:26am] one week. one week from today is my breaking point. fuck, i am already broken. but i guess it'll be the point where i choose to make the real break, then deal with the complete hurt, instead of the sharp papercut type hanging on hurt i'm dealing with now. too selfish...i heard it from your mouth twice tonight...and no...i think knowing your problems, knowing the pain you cause and why, then chosing not to do anything about is worse than being oblivious...this is what i get. this is what i get for opening up. thank you. i am now going to drink myself to sleep, because i can't stand to be alone with my thoughts anymore moo with me

[04 Jun 2007|07:20pm] i am so over myself right now. everything. over it. don't know why you care. ( 13 minutes ) moo with me

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[28 May 2007|11:50pm] tired. so so very tired. of so many things. if only we could figure out what what best for ourselves, and go with it. trim the fat, just...be the best we can. oh wait, emotions. damn them ha. cake, comfort eagel, is awesome. love you madly, mostly world of two, sum up my life. too bad "you" doesn't seem to get it. if they even want to. *sigh* good night moo with me

[20 May 2007|02:15am] my drink. 1 1/2 parts berry vodka (or more) 2 pt. 7up 2 pt cherry 1 pt apple sour ...goodness moo with me

[19 May 2007|03:43am] Are we back at the beginning? Haven't we been here before? I'm exhausted, your a little more. I want something you...don't have. I'm a little worried but I know it still goes on without you here. I know it still goes on without you here. i...i am through. 'cuz i waited for this all my life and then another day... moo with me

[18 May 2007|02:00am] zoe bell (kick-ass stunt woman, uma's in the kill bill's, herself in death proof) has the same birthday as me...cool :) 1 cow| moo with me

[14 May 2007|10:33pm] *sigh* why does it keep hurting when i explicitly tell it not to... however today was an ok day, despite the fact that i got to work about an hour late...oops. sorry guys. now to plot a lighting project which i don't really know how to do... 1 cow| moo with me

[14 May 2007|03:38am] [ mood | intoxicated ] i feel like i got beat up. i ache right now. from a combination of everything.... yay for me...work in 3 hours, exhaustion galore (per usual), mediorcre work, dizziness, inebration...goodness, why can't i care? i try, but every time i read what i wrote, i don't see anything wrong with it! i've raed it sober, not, and it doesn't seem bad. from his reality, perhaps, but actual reality...what the hell? what.the.hell. god when you need people why aren't they there? i mean, the people who really would be there in a heartbeat i don't want to burden, the people who should be there say things like if you need me call...then don't call to make sure i'm ok...because anyone who really knows me knows i won't call when i need. what the fuck. i've been a mess. i've been crying on and off all day, for reasons which i'm not sure i understand, and i think i might just start again...but who the fuck cares right? ha...good night. moo with me

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